First, a little back information, just to give you the full picture:
About four years ago, my brother and I, along with a large group of our friends, started ballroom dancing. Why, you ask, would a group of teenagers start going to ballroom dancing lessons. Honestly, I don't even remember now. Something about of our friend's dads was forcing her to go, and she needed some moral support. Over the course of about a year, we grew into a pretty sizable group, recruiting anyone who was bored on a Friday night to come dancing with us. We did shows and all sorts of things, and everyone loved it while it lasted.
However, over the course of the next few years, everyone moved onto other things, some to college, some to the military, and then it was just down to little ol' me. I was in every show, going to private lessons every week, doing everything I could to move ahead in the dance world. I was on the fast track to competitions and was striving to become a coach myself. Twice a week, I was spending upwards of 2 hours getting ready to go to dances and classes, which lasted maybe a few hours, and I loved it. I excelled in the smooth dances, such as the waltz and foxtrot, and enjoyed every second of it.
All good things must come to an end, however. Or rather, make room for new good things to come into this world. Six months ago, we found out that I was pregnant, and almost immediately after that, I stopped going to classes and dances, mostly from being overwhelmed with the prospect of becoming a new mom. And so, I really have been completely out of practice for the last six months, not so much as practicing a box-step in that time. Which brings us to now:
Tomorrow night, after six months, I'm going to a dance. A West Coast Swing dance. For any of you that are in the know about ballroom dancing at all, WCS is one of the sexiest styles of ballroom dancing. This is a very intimidating prospect when your waistline has expanded to about 60 inches and your center of balance is 30 degrees from where it used to be. Oh, and of course there's that added intimidation of dancing next to size 6, gorgeous blondes and brunettes that have 10 times more style and attitude than you do.
Don't get me wrong, I love most of the people in our little dance community, but most of them are completely unaware of the pregnancy (it's been very well hidden, thus far). I, at this point, haven't even told me coach. Needless to say, it's going to be are rather large night, and really, I would rather crawl under a rock for the next year, and pretend nothing's going on.
So why am I doing this, you ask? Because I love the father of my child. We might not be "together", but I still love him for everything that we've been through and everything that we have yet to go through together, and for his determination to put up with all of my nonsense and stick around for both the baby and me. He loves to dance, and he's had a terrible week of preparing for finals and working twelve-hour shifts, and the added bonus of being in the hospital with me. And so I want to do something for him.
Of course, in order to muster up the courage to do this specific kindness for him, I have to do something for myself. In this case, that happens to be going out, getting a bottle of nail polish, a can of mousse, and a fabulous dress, and getting dressed to the nines. You'd think I'd have this one in the bag, I'd be totally calm about it, same ol' same ol'.
Nope.
The prospect of dressing this new, rounder body in anything other than sweats and my work uniform is terrifying, at best. So now, the goal of tomorrow is to try and put myself together in the best way possible, looking at all the different options, and going for the maximum "wow" factor (within reason). Oh, and all of this on a budget much thinner than even a shoe string. We shall see. More to come.
Kati